I just wanted to share about seeing into anger, and how intense it is. I have at times been very afraid of anger. It is difficult to see oneself in a positive light when one feels anger on a regular basis. Especially if you have low self esteem, or tend to beat yourself up, anger can be something that is hard to acknowledge or look at. This is understandable, especially if you grew up with an angry parent. But it really is safe to look at anger. It isn't a monster, it is just thought and energy, and when looked at deeply with awareness, one can see that it is okay to feel anger in oneself and other people.
For me my struggle has been with being put down by someone. I did not want another person to carry with them the belief that I was bad. In looking deeply I see that it is okay that they felt that way, and that I don't need to defend myself. Why don't we need to defend ourselves? Isn't it important that we stop other people from abusing us? Yes, that is in fact important. If someone is abusing us we have to tell them to stop. But it is not the abuse I am concerned with, since that can be stopped in an instant. It is the consecutive thoughts and feelings that linger in both people. And those are the things that can be left alone. It really is okay to let go of what someone else is thinking of you, even if they hate you, or believe that they do. Even if you will have to see them every day. This is because awareness is supreme over the ego. Even though ego feels that it is the center of the universe, it is like a pool with no reflection. Ego thinks that it is solid, and if it looks in the mirror it will see itself, solid, reflected back. But when one actually looks there is no reflection at all. So one can be put down, and smushed, and this is okay. We can focus on what is important which is our own connection, development of stillness and love. Part of that development is feeling everything including our own anger, rage, and hatred.
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I have just read Jung's 7 Sermons To The Dead (for the first time in my life). I am not enlightened. I feel no uplifting spirit in me. If Sermons to The Living are what I must need be reading instead I am definitely strayed from the rightful path and have awoken to find myself in a dark wood. This is bleak and hopeless. Unless for only one thing I can imagine. If the laws of life, death and beyond, id est, all eternity, are not to my liking, I must create a new, private, my own, universe. It's just that I hate to live alone.
I have just read Jung's 7 Sermons To The Dead (for the first time in my life). I am not enlightened. I feel no uplifting spirit in me. If Sermons to The Living are what I must need be reading instead I am definitely strayed from the rightful path and have awoken to find myself in a dark wood. This is bleak and hopeless. Unless for only one thing I can imagine. If the laws of life, death and beyond, id est, all eternity, are not to my liking, I must create a new, private, my own, universe. It's just that I hate to live alone.
Musagettes, you don't necessarily have to create a new universe and live there alone. There is another option. You could surrender to your "not liking - ness." You might think "but what does that mean, to surrender to not liking something?" It means to accept each thought as it arises, because that is what IS. Watch it come and go over and over, don't judge it! Don't judge how you don't like the world, yourself, whatever. Just don't judge anything. There is something wise and beautiful about just what you are.
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